Good day today:
Slept in really late.
Got up, did my laundry and caught up on BBC's Merlin.
It rained, so I put my pj's back on.
Worked on handmade Christmas gifts while watching all of the following movies: A Christmas Carol: The Musical, Spiderman, and Spiderman 2.
First Monday Off: Win.
Monday, December 14, 2009
Sunday, December 13, 2009
if only in my dreams <3
oh, it's the holiday season!
I feel like I haven't updated in awhile - so here's a few thoughts:
1. It's the Christmas season - MY FAVORITE. In all reality, I always view Christmas as this magical sparkling time of the year where people are nicer, the songs are prettier, and you can eat as many baked goods as you like as long as they have red and green sprinkles on them... perfect.
2. I am missing him so very much right now. A part of me wants to beat myself up for ruining our friendship, but the other part of me regrets nothing. I have no idea how to feel around him - because in all rights, it's better this way. But at the same time, I hate the idea of him with anyone else, and I hate that I miss him so much. It drives me to make snide comments to him, which I hate even more about myself. In general, I just want to fast forward to that part where I don't have any more feelings for him.
3. I'm twenty one now! Hooray! Life has been bizarre since then - going in and out of bars, etc. Strange!
4. I feel that one of the people who I thought was one of my really good friends has betrayed me by spreading really cruel lies about me. I'm not sure how to confront them though, because I have no proof that it was them, just my intuition. My plan - turn the other cheek. I'm pretty sure that's what the powers that be would want me to do, so it's what I'm planning on.
5. I can't wait to be home with my family for the holiday. It's weird, but I really need to feel that safety for awhile. While I adore my friends here, I'm starting to feel the seismic pressure of our social circle crumbling. So I'm just ready to free myself.
6. The Lovely Bones is an amazing book. Read it.
7. The Potluck was really fun, but I really miss my traditional Christmas Party. But on the other hand, stuffing! MMM.
In general, life is good. Sometimes little things nag at me, but I love the work I'm doing here and I love that I'm really starting to believe in myself lately. My main focus from now on is going to be this: THEATRE and ART. And I'm going to (forgive the reference) hold out for a hero. I'm tired of trying to make things work with people who aren't right for me. I'm tired of ruining friendships, so until someone comes along who changes my mind - it's me and my art.
Well, that's my healthy mentality for now.
Love!
Happy Christmas!
I feel like I haven't updated in awhile - so here's a few thoughts:
1. It's the Christmas season - MY FAVORITE. In all reality, I always view Christmas as this magical sparkling time of the year where people are nicer, the songs are prettier, and you can eat as many baked goods as you like as long as they have red and green sprinkles on them... perfect.
2. I am missing him so very much right now. A part of me wants to beat myself up for ruining our friendship, but the other part of me regrets nothing. I have no idea how to feel around him - because in all rights, it's better this way. But at the same time, I hate the idea of him with anyone else, and I hate that I miss him so much. It drives me to make snide comments to him, which I hate even more about myself. In general, I just want to fast forward to that part where I don't have any more feelings for him.
3. I'm twenty one now! Hooray! Life has been bizarre since then - going in and out of bars, etc. Strange!
4. I feel that one of the people who I thought was one of my really good friends has betrayed me by spreading really cruel lies about me. I'm not sure how to confront them though, because I have no proof that it was them, just my intuition. My plan - turn the other cheek. I'm pretty sure that's what the powers that be would want me to do, so it's what I'm planning on.
5. I can't wait to be home with my family for the holiday. It's weird, but I really need to feel that safety for awhile. While I adore my friends here, I'm starting to feel the seismic pressure of our social circle crumbling. So I'm just ready to free myself.
6. The Lovely Bones is an amazing book. Read it.
7. The Potluck was really fun, but I really miss my traditional Christmas Party. But on the other hand, stuffing! MMM.
In general, life is good. Sometimes little things nag at me, but I love the work I'm doing here and I love that I'm really starting to believe in myself lately. My main focus from now on is going to be this: THEATRE and ART. And I'm going to (forgive the reference) hold out for a hero. I'm tired of trying to make things work with people who aren't right for me. I'm tired of ruining friendships, so until someone comes along who changes my mind - it's me and my art.
Well, that's my healthy mentality for now.
Love!
Happy Christmas!
Saturday, December 5, 2009
a fox trot above my head - a sock hop beneath my bed!
Today was a really good day (thus far). I'm pretty sure it's worth documenting, however un-extraordinary it may seem.
This morning, I woke up early and Cory was still here from where he spent the night on my pull-out bed last night. =) It's always nice to wake up to friends. I made myself some fried eggs (which were tasty) and my first human contact was Brittain appearing in the space between our bar and grumbling some incoherent early morning syllable that made me chuckle (something along the lines of "ernh!"). I love it when I wake up early, fairly well rested and get a good breakfast!
Then I went to Crazy For You dance rehearsals. They were really fun, and I got a nice little built in work out! Plus, the boys were there so we got to do lifts the entire last hour =) fun!
The next part of my day consisted of picking up India who bought me a coffee at the market, going to the grocery store to get baking ingredients, then to Burger King for lunch - then we came home and ate and baked most of the day! We made: fudge, oreo truffles, red velvet truffles, and we WERE going to make brownies and cookies but we got distracted... And Melissa (SA!) came over!
When Brittain thought we could get a free cat. Which we couldn't, but it resulted in a trip to PetSmart! Where even though there was no free cat, we got to see some cute animals. Even though Cody the dog made us sad. I wanted to love on him so bad!
Then India made Sims of us all in The Sims 3 =) Joy of joys.
I just feel like good days should be documented.
Tonight is my twenty first birthday. Hoorah! I look forward to ordering a drink tonight at TGI Fridays surrounded by my friends =)
Life is good.
(and bizarre, though I have no strange remarks to share after the toothbrush comment.)
This morning, I woke up early and Cory was still here from where he spent the night on my pull-out bed last night. =) It's always nice to wake up to friends. I made myself some fried eggs (which were tasty) and my first human contact was Brittain appearing in the space between our bar and grumbling some incoherent early morning syllable that made me chuckle (something along the lines of "ernh!"). I love it when I wake up early, fairly well rested and get a good breakfast!
Then I went to Crazy For You dance rehearsals. They were really fun, and I got a nice little built in work out! Plus, the boys were there so we got to do lifts the entire last hour =) fun!
The next part of my day consisted of picking up India who bought me a coffee at the market, going to the grocery store to get baking ingredients, then to Burger King for lunch - then we came home and ate and baked most of the day! We made: fudge, oreo truffles, red velvet truffles, and we WERE going to make brownies and cookies but we got distracted... And Melissa (SA!) came over!
When Brittain thought we could get a free cat. Which we couldn't, but it resulted in a trip to PetSmart! Where even though there was no free cat, we got to see some cute animals. Even though Cody the dog made us sad. I wanted to love on him so bad!
Then India made Sims of us all in The Sims 3 =) Joy of joys.
I just feel like good days should be documented.
Tonight is my twenty first birthday. Hoorah! I look forward to ordering a drink tonight at TGI Fridays surrounded by my friends =)
Life is good.
(and bizarre, though I have no strange remarks to share after the toothbrush comment.)
I AM BIZARRE (2): Toothbrush
I Am Bizarre, Episode Two: Toothbrush
"Cory is just like a toothbrush. No really, I think you could just brush your teeth with his hair."
Why do I say these things?!
"Cory is just like a toothbrush. No really, I think you could just brush your teeth with his hair."
Why do I say these things?!
Sunday, November 29, 2009
MY LIFE IS BIZARRE (5)
episode five.
When driving up to my parents' condo in North Carolina this week, I noticed a flag hanging outside of one of the windows. My brain said "Dear God, no."
My family, instead of being like all NORMAL American families, has decided to forgo the traditional American or Seasonal flag and opt for something much more... ethnic.
We fly the Irish flag.
Not only that, but there are framed pictures of Ireland, empty Jameson bottles, and so much Irish insignia around our new house and it just scared me a little bit.
My life is bizarre.
When driving up to my parents' condo in North Carolina this week, I noticed a flag hanging outside of one of the windows. My brain said "Dear God, no."
My family, instead of being like all NORMAL American families, has decided to forgo the traditional American or Seasonal flag and opt for something much more... ethnic.
We fly the Irish flag.
Not only that, but there are framed pictures of Ireland, empty Jameson bottles, and so much Irish insignia around our new house and it just scared me a little bit.
My life is bizarre.
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
the scapegoat (or just another example of how weird I am)
Every time I tell someone that I'm going to visit my parents in North Carolina, they usually have something to tell me about the state - such as "Oh North Carolina is so beautiful!" or "Oh, I have an uncle in North Carolina."
I realized something as the 757 descended onto the row of plastic-looking perfect North Carolinian houses - I resent the state of North Carolina. I take out all my general frustration with the idea of my family moving from my childhood home on the entire state of North Carolina - I don't like North Carolina houses (they all look the same!), I don't like North Carolina drivers (they are worse than the ones in Columbus!), etc, etc, blah blah blah.
Okay, so here's my goal: STOP BLAMING THE ENTIRE STATE OF NORTH CAROLINA FOR ALL OF MY TROUBLES.
(even if it is inferior to the state of Georgia.)
I'm in North Carolina for Thanksgiving. Happy to be out of Columbus, secretly wishing it was Augusta, actually not totally hating my parents' new condo.
Bizarrely okay with the situation.
I will say this for North Carolina, they do have a really good Mexican restaurant for my parents to frequent.
I realized something as the 757 descended onto the row of plastic-looking perfect North Carolinian houses - I resent the state of North Carolina. I take out all my general frustration with the idea of my family moving from my childhood home on the entire state of North Carolina - I don't like North Carolina houses (they all look the same!), I don't like North Carolina drivers (they are worse than the ones in Columbus!), etc, etc, blah blah blah.
Okay, so here's my goal: STOP BLAMING THE ENTIRE STATE OF NORTH CAROLINA FOR ALL OF MY TROUBLES.
(even if it is inferior to the state of Georgia.)
I'm in North Carolina for Thanksgiving. Happy to be out of Columbus, secretly wishing it was Augusta, actually not totally hating my parents' new condo.
Bizarrely okay with the situation.
I will say this for North Carolina, they do have a really good Mexican restaurant for my parents to frequent.
Sunday, November 22, 2009
I AM BIZARRE. (episode one.)
(not that this is the first bizarre thing that I've ever done, but I felt that along with my series, "My Life is Bizarre", I should include the fact that I am bizarre, and some awesome moments of me being... well, bizarre.)
"If there were epic battles, like in Middle Earth, I think there would be one between me and cling wrap."
"If there were epic battles, like in Middle Earth, I think there would be one between me and cling wrap."
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