MY LIFE IS BIZARRE (5)

episode five.

When driving up to my parents' condo in North Carolina this week, I noticed a flag hanging outside of one of the windows. My brain said "Dear God, no."
My family, instead of being like all NORMAL American families, has decided to forgo the traditional American or Seasonal flag and opt for something much more... ethnic.
We fly the Irish flag.

Not only that, but there are framed pictures of Ireland, empty Jameson bottles, and so much Irish insignia around our new house and it just scared me a little bit.

My life is bizarre.

the scapegoat (or just another example of how weird I am)

Every time I tell someone that I'm going to visit my parents in North Carolina, they usually have something to tell me about the state - such as "Oh North Carolina is so beautiful!" or "Oh, I have an uncle in North Carolina."

I realized something as the 757 descended onto the row of plastic-looking perfect North Carolinian houses - I resent the state of North Carolina. I take out all my general frustration with the idea of my family moving from my childhood home on the entire state of North Carolina - I don't like North Carolina houses (they all look the same!), I don't like North Carolina drivers (they are worse than the ones in Columbus!), etc, etc, blah blah blah.

Okay, so here's my goal: STOP BLAMING THE ENTIRE STATE OF NORTH CAROLINA FOR ALL OF MY TROUBLES.
(even if it is inferior to the state of Georgia.)

I'm in North Carolina for Thanksgiving. Happy to be out of Columbus, secretly wishing it was Augusta, actually not totally hating my parents' new condo.
Bizarrely okay with the situation.

I will say this for North Carolina, they do have a really good Mexican restaurant for my parents to frequent.

I AM BIZARRE. (episode one.)

(not that this is the first bizarre thing that I've ever done, but I felt that along with my series, "My Life is Bizarre", I should include the fact that I am bizarre, and some awesome moments of me being... well, bizarre.)

"If there were epic battles, like in Middle Earth, I think there would be one between me and cling wrap."

(only half of a joke.)

I'm going on strike from dating.

No, it really is just too stressful for me right now, warps my (and everyone else's, for that matter) priorities, and makes me moderately miserable.

So until something nice comes along and happens easily, it's bye-bye trying to hard and hello hard-hitting the books. Because if he really comes along, it will all work out without the stress and miserability.

Luckily, I have my real passion in my life to keep me going. I am loving my theatre classes, despite how miserable my social life is right now. So life is good.

And Christmas is soon, so things are looking up.

ps. I'm not actually striking from dating. but it would be nice if I could turn off my emotions for once.

pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.

so it's been a hard week this week.
so I still have myself, my friends, my family, my passion, and God.
I have the support of not just my friends but even the faculty of CSU.
I have a wonderful, caring family.
Just because James and I didn't work out as a couple doesn't mean I have to lose him as my friend.
I'm actually pretty much a badass.

Life will be okay. I just need to be sad a little while longer.
I miss you, so come home soon.

MY LIFE IS BIZARRE (4)

My Life is Bizarre (Episode 4)

Yesterday in acting class, my partner Chase sat on a chair on top of a desk while I played with a large pink bouncy ball (a la the ones at walmart in those giant bins!) and we read a scene.

My life is so bizarre.

random thoughts in no particular order.

I'm feeling really worn down right now.
I hate the way that people try to fit other people into a cookie cutter mold of what they think they should be. I'm afraid I've been guilty of that for the past few days. (our relationship/whatever is not cookie cutter perfect. it never will be. I'm okay with that - and everyone else can suck it.)
I love directing but it stresses me out.
I wish the world wasn't run by money.
My sense of fashion changes on a weekly basis.
My hair is getting long.
I've been drinking the crazy juice lately. I need to stop that.
I got cast as Tess in Crazy For You! SO EXCITING.
I love fried chicken.
It would be great if I could lose weight.
I am stressed about getting a one act chosen.
I love you kids.
That is all.