so just be gentle with me
(I'm not as young as I was)
and I'll be gentle with you
(I'm not as brave as I thought)
because my heart gets broken so easily,
so just be gentle, be gentle, be gentle, be gentle with me.
or maybe, that's just my life. I feel like every day it gets stranger and stranger, but I'm pretty happy, all in all.
I think that coming to terms with who I am, physically, emotionally, just by myself is really helping me be happy. I'm trying so hard not to please everyone, but to please myself. I know that sounds selfish, but I think it's the only way that I can finally be happier than I've been in the past. I can't stretch myself so thin that I fall apart again - I absolutely refuse!
In other news, I love choreography. I think my sense of fulfillment is outpouring into the rest of my life, and people seem to be more attracted to fulfilled and happy Robin than they did to stretched-too-thin, pleasing the rest of the world Robin. Hm - what a conclusion!
Another thought - I want a boyfriend. I KNOW. It's like this - I am strong, I know I'm a great person on my own. And I know that if I set my mind to anything in the world, I could probably acheive it BY MYSELF but I can't ignore the whiney inner me that is desperate for some male attention. I wish I could squash this pathetic inner self so that I could just move on with my life without the ache for something "more". Sometimes I think I've been missing out on something because I rarely am able to convince myself that dating is something that fits in with my lifestyle - but I'm starting to think I need to reevaluate the way I feel about it. LE SIGH. At least, I can say, life is weird. Maybe things will start to look up in this category.
Other thoughts to think on - it's been really effing cold outside for the past few days! WHY! I feel like if it would just SNOW or even ICE over, I would be more able to accept the cold as a fact of life, but since it's just illogically freezing, I'm not really sure how I feel about the whole concept, to be honest!
I just wish Georgia would make its mind up about the weather.
Classes are going well, I think. Not any worse than ever before, at least. And no real tragedies have happened thus far this semester, so I think I can count it as a success.
Basically, that's my life right now. Hey - I never said it was interesting.
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